For My Sons

I thought I'd give my other two Valentines their own blog too :) I asked Kevin if he was going to buy a candy gram for anyone at school, if he was going to have a Valentine? He said, "I do have a Valentine. You."

I don't think my boys comprehend how much I love them. They are forever in my heart, on my mind, and in my dreams. I loved them before we met, before they existed I dreamed of them and who they would be ❤ They are so much more than I could have hoped for ❤ They're both smart, caring, and loving individuals.

Kevin is a lot like me. He tells me constantly and freely gives those he loves his affection. He's always telling me he loves me, that he thinks of me, and how he'd search the globe if he ever lost me.

We recently got new neighbors and the little boy who's Kevin's age has been over almost every day. They play so good together and they've instantly become best friends. I love watching them play and Kevin looking at his friend affectionately. I know Kevin befriends good kids and hope these friendships last him for many years to come.

James is still young so his vocabulary is limited, however, he does say "I love you" and hugs our family. He loves cuddles and snuggles. He loves being sung to and playing with his big brother.

I couldn't have asked for two sweeter sons ❤ Mommy loves you both so very much ❤ You each are a part of my soul and have added so much happiness into our lives ❤ Happy Valentine's Day, Kevo and James ❤

For My Valentine

I know to some this is a silly "holiday", however, I think it's important to remind those that you love them and to do so often. We live in a hectic world and busy schedules that some of us forget to say it or show our significant other just how much they mean to us. With that in mind I dedicate this blog to my Valentine.

I don't know if I say it enough how much I love you and am so thankful that we took a chance all those years ago. People didn't approve of our decision and were rude to us but we followed our hearts. It hasn't always been easy. We've been looked down on by those we loved, we've driven each other crazy, and in the past six years we've made one another cry... However, despite our obstacles we come out the other side happier and stronger.

Every day I wake up with you by my side is another day I'm grateful and blessed to have chosen you. After all this time I still choose you. You make me happier than I ever thought I could be. You give me strength when I feel weak and you make me smile when I forget how. You are my very best friend! At the end of the day I can't wait to see you and talk to you! And when it comes down to it there's no one else I'd rather walk through life with ❤ You really opened up my eyes and showed me what real love is ❤ You are my soulmate, my best friend, and an amazing father to our children ❤ I love you so much more with each passing day ❤ Thank you for loving me unconditionally, for making me laugh when I don't want to, for being a great dad to our sons, for providing us with everything we need (that goes beyond materialistic things as well). Our lives have been enriched because of you ❤ I love you! Happy Valentine's Day! (Two days early). I can't wait for our date night this weekend ❤

2015

2015 didn't go as I intended. I went off my meds at the end of 2014 and went back on them a few months later. Every day is a battle and I learn that what I thought was depression in high school is nothing compared to now. However, I won't let it beat me! I'm so grateful for my blessings!

At the top of the list is my family. James, Kevin, and I got to bring in the New Year with Jim and I was so grateful for that! He is always on call for New Year and it was no different this time, however, he didn't get called out so we were able to light bottle rockets from off the driveway. James loves fireworks! He covered his ears but still wore a big smile on his face and shouted "awesome" when they were done.

Kevin enjoyed his winter vacation, of course, but felt it went by too quickly. He got almost everything he wanted for Christmas and a few things he wasn't expecting. James really got into opening up presents so it was a lot of fun to see him get so excited when he'd open car after car.

Jim has been loving his job more than usual lately and so it's helping with his stress. Unfortunately 2015 brought a lot of family drama... However, his job has him working at the space center in Cape Canaveral so it has been helping his stress. A few times the workers gave him a behind the scenes tour and Jim's inner nerd was elated! :) So proud of my hubby :) I love him more than words can say ❤

My favorite parts of 2015... Hanging out with family and going to Disney for Thanksgiving ❤  How blessed I am to live near my family and that we all get along. So from our family to yours Happy New Year!

Christmas 2015

Christmas was wonderful. We went to my parent's house for our family tradition to open presents on Christmas Eve. On Christmas day we woke up early (because of James) but we proceeded to wake up Kevin so the boys could open up their gifts. Afterwards we went to my parent's house once again so we could carpool to Davenport. My cousin is renting a house there and we had a nice family gathering. I didn't take any pictures because my phone died.

There was a nice heated pool and a hot tub in their back yard. Jim and I went swimming with James, Kevin, Kalib, Hayley, Tommy, and Brennan. James swims very well in a floaty swimsuit that he got from Oliver and we have no doubt he'll be a pro swimmer next summer.

Kevin played in the game room with the other kids: Kalib, Oliver, Brennan, Zander, Devin, and Tommy. They even took their Nerf guns outside and shot each other. They all had fun and were very well behaved.

The adults all brought food over for dinner. Aunt Janet made lasagna and garlic bread, Richelle brought over bread as well, Granny made an apple salad, Aunt Renee made peanut butter fudge and barbecue chicken, I brought pumpkin bread, and my mom brought some cheese cakes. Later Katie, Conner, Colt, Charlette, and her boyfriend came. Katie and Charlette both announced that they're pregnant! So exciting! They're both having boys in the Spring.

I'm so blessed to have such a big family that loves get togethers. My cousins, Todd and Ally, hope to make this move permanent within this up coming year. So excited to have them living closer! This really was a nice Christmas! I hope our friends, family, and everyone reading this had a nice Christmas as well.

Granny, Terri, Miles, Renee, Ramona, and Richelle

Milo David Wilkins

My little nephew has made his grand entrance... Finally :P lol I feel like I too have waited and waited for this little guy to make his grand entrance here... My tween, my best friend, my sister has been trying to get pregnant for a VERY long time and when she had given up all hope of it ever happening she found out she was pregnant... And not just a little bit pregnant, she was almost through her first trimester of pregnancy!

Of course, I was worried about her because she's a small woman, she has nerve pain every day, and suffers from depression. However, despite her health condition, depression, and against all odds she gave birth to a beautiful baby boy ❤ I'm saddened that I couldn't be there to welcome the love of her life and be with her as she "ran the marathon that is labor" as Bekah put it, but we have plans to visit them soon and meet this little dude ❤

So I dedicate this blog to my tween. I have seen you go through some difficult obstacles and I have always wished the world for you because in my dark days it was your voice that I heard and kept me going. I love you, tween and have no doubt you will be a wonderful mother. You already are to so many but now you have one of your own ❤ I love you and can't wait to meet this little guy ❤

And here's some pictures of him, as promised.

Born November 30, 2015 at 14:08;
Weighing 6lbs. 14oz. and 19 1/2 inches long

Was transported to Danville, PA due to a collapsed lung

Now he's happy and healthy at home ❤

Happy Thanksgiving!

My favorite holiday has come and gone and what a great holiday it was! I love this time of year when the air gets cooler and family comes from all over to share this beautiful holiday with you!! This year we celebrated a little differently. My family and I checked into the Disney Movies Resort on Wednesday and stayed until Saturday night. We went to all Disney theme parks, a different one each day. We started with Magic Kingdom and ended with Hollywood Studios. I'm so grateful for my family, the time we spend together, and the memories we are able to make ❤  May we be able to make many more for many many many years to come ❤ And for those reading this blog I hope you had a great Thanksgiving as well ❤

Catching Up

I know I'm way behind in blogging. We've been very busy. Kevin has started 5th grade and loving it! His favorite subjects are math and science. He's doing well, of course, strictly an Honor Roll student.

Jim is still working for United Fire, still loving it. We're getting ready to celebrate Thanksgiving and I'm so excited! Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday! Family comes from all over, everyone makes delicious food, and we sit together around the table enjoying each other's company ❤ I love my family and can't wait to celebrate with them!

James is talking more every day. He is still sleeping in our bed and has begun potty training. He hasn't picked it up yet, but we remain patient and positive ☺ He's our sweet little man. He had his 2 1/2 year check-up; he is in the 97th percentile for height and weight! He's our moose!

Anyway, for Halloween we went to Mickey's Not-So-Scary Halloween. My mom, my Granny, and aunt Renee made costumes for Oliver, Kennedy, and Hayley. Their outfits were gorgeous! Then on the actual day for Halloween Kennedy had her first Homecoming dance ❤ She looked absolutely beautiful!

As for me I'm doing well. I started walking with some of the other mom's from Kevin's school in the mornings. It has greatly helped my anxiety and I hope it helps me lose the baby weight as well.

Life is good! Hard to believe 2015 is coming to a close... But there's still so much to look forward to! Not only Thanksgiving but my Tween, Emma, is due any day now with Baby Milo ❤ So can't wait to meet my twin's little bundle ❤ Pictures will be posted! 😉

Kristoff and Elsa

Pokémon Trainer, Elsa, Anna, Kristoff, Kalib, and James

Kennedy ready for her first
Homecoming

My sister decorated her hair

Jim and James ❤

Kevin, Thor, and Kalib ❤